FAQ's....

It was the best of times (well hello, the most significant thing in my life to date happened having this little one)...it was the worst of times (getting the epidural scared me to death, milk coming in was a horrible day)....We are 2 weeks old (well, 2 weeks and 1 day). I feel like my pre-baby days were already a lifetime ago.

Thought I'd just give a little update, sorry about my delayed phone call returns/emails/etc. The days absolutely fly by right now. I used to wonder why the hell stay at home moms were so busy--what exactly are they busy doing? Now I know. I get it. I am sorry I ever judged you. The answer is I have no clue. But I get up and it's around 7...and the next thing I know it's 3pm, I haven't brushed my teeth and oh yeah, I need food. (OK, even I admit I'm over exaggerating a bit. Anyone that knows my mom or Jason's mom knows that by God no one will go hungry with them around..)

Couple of FAQs:

How is she doing?

We had our 2 week check up this morning. We are back to birth weight- straight up 8LBS! 20 1/2 inches..Percentiles (for what those are worth)..Weight = 45%, Height = 50%, Head= 40% (ha! so much for the fear of the ginormous head). She is absolutely awesome, precious, amazing, and I could just stare at her all day. I love her more each day. I have never been so excited in my life for someone to be able to hold their head up, move it side to side, or stare at my face. It's not possible to look at her and not believe that there is a God in heaven.

SO FAR (knock on wood, rub the rabbits foot, or in my case wear my FAB 4 BFF necklace from Christin for good luck), she is a great sleeper. She slept from 9:30 - 1:45 last night- praise Jesus.

How are you doing?

This question is hard. I am genuinely happy but there are a lot of emotions going on right now. I feel kinda guilty for being completely honest. For the most part I'm doing well. Each day I get a little more confident and each day is a little better than the day before. For 31 years now, I have been getting a solid 8 - 9 hours of uninterrupted sleep. So even for the best baby, it's hard to adjust to being woken up.

I'm emotional. I don't call it post-pardom or anything..In fact, I don't know what it is. Anyone that knows me knows I'm not particularly emotional, I for sure fall on the side of too logical if anything. But I can randomly start sobbing. (sorry Jason).

My girls hurt (just hard to type the word boobs in there since my dad reads this..). BFing takes a lot out of me. We are also supplementing, but I'm in a first names basis with the lactation specialist (I have seen her 4 times in 9 days..) and I am having to except that my girls just don't produce everything she needs. (I'll save the off-line details for one-on-one conversations, but no joke we have tried everything). That was an ego blow for me. As narcissistic as this may sound, I'm not really used to truly putting my heart into something and it failing.

Also as of Saturday, I threw every parenting baby book out the window (for now). Screw it. They were making me neurotic. And since I have relaxed, she has too and she seems to be settling into her own little schedule without any real help (whoda thought?). All that will come, I know but I need to just let her be little right now.