Day 3 of life: I just continue to fall more in love with her everyday, in 6 minutes we'll be celebrating her 3 day old b-day! And tomorrow we go home! I am incredible blessed in that I'm recovering very well from the c-section. I've taken 2 showers and really don't even need pain meds more than once a day. We really have lost track of the days at this point, I think we are totally content to just sit and stare at her all day. We've loved being able to share her with friends...she's sporting her little Valentine's Day shirt from auntie Stephanie today.. Boy though, little Carson just loves her hands! Thank goodness for those little baby gloves, she kinda constantly looks like she's sporting the Touchdown Jesus pose
The second night was hard for me. I almost have to make light of this to keep from crying b/c it was tramatic for me at the time. I know understand why breastfeeding is so hard. You get it crammed down your throat your entire pregnancy on the 1000 different reasons to breast feed, but I TRULY TRULY know why now it's so easy to just go to the bottle and not worry about it. I felt like a complete failure when I let her get suppplimented with a bottle Wednesday night. B/c you feel like God forbide, if you give her the plastic nipple for even a second, she'll shun you for the rest of your days. I'll spare the exact details, but Melissa & Jolie both came by (God must have personally known I needed those specific people 2 that night).
Bottom line is that breast feeding is hard and babies don't come with instructions. There are lots of little things you go through that books and other people don't tell you OR you get advice from 15 different nurses/dr that is all slightly different. But the last thing you need to feel like is judged when you don't have a lot of confidence anyway. Jason had made a quick Starbucks run, but I was so upset that she wouldn't take to me that I ended up overfeeding her and she promptly threw up which just had me in tears b/c at that moment I had decided I had made her stomach explode.
Bottom line is that breast feeding is hard and babies don't come with instructions. There are lots of little things you go through that books and other people don't tell you OR you get advice from 15 different nurses/dr that is all slightly different. But the last thing you need to feel like is judged when you don't have a lot of confidence anyway. Jason had made a quick Starbucks run, but I was so upset that she wouldn't take to me that I ended up overfeeding her and she promptly threw up which just had me in tears b/c at that moment I had decided I had made her stomach explode.
Well, he got back and laughed at me. I stayed upset for exactly one night and by the Thursday morning I just let it go. I have been fine ever since. I even realize that she is not going to break. She will not hold it against me. She did, however, almost blow out her diaper. And since I have chilled out, she's been a great little latcher every since.
Thanks to everyone for the super sweet thoughts, gifts, visits, flowers, emails, texts. I can't wait to get the little muffin home and introduce her to her sister Kayla...I'm sure that will provide another drama filled posting...
Oh, we also got her hospital pics taken. Follow the link:
Have a great weekend!
3 comments:
Breastfeeding is hard...my whole philosophy is to take it one day at a time. I would say...I can do it one more day...then all of a sudden it clicked. While it was tough, Russell became a lactation consultant (can you hear my sarcasm?) and tried to guide my every move! Tell Jason to learn from my sweet (& well intentioned) husband's mistakes. :) Can't wait to meet her! She is adorable!!!!!
Breastfeeding IS hard!I was in pain for probably the first 4 weeks. I remember actually being kindof scared of James when he was a newborn! We called him THE VAMPIRE! I think my boobs would have screamed if they could have! But then they toughen up and it was great!The advice from the other comment is perfect. Just take it one day at a time! And don't feel bad if it doesn't work out. It is not for everyone!
Wow!! Those are the BEST hospital pics I have ever seen. Good job on everything so far!!!!
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